Yes…No…Maybe?

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It’s strange to see something you find hard to believe, but when it’s not really there in the first place it takes things to a whole new level.

Let me explain the situation… I have auditory hallucinations pretty much constantly, they are dampened down by taking Risperidone, but they are always there and I am always aware of them. The rest of my cocktail is Depakote, Mirtazapine, Ariproprazole, Lamotrigine and Lorazepam The Ariproprazole wasn’t working the way it should after nearly three months, so my psychiatrist decided to wean me off that and add in Reboxetine. That link takes you to the Wikipedia page for the drug. Now I know the wiki isn’t a professional thing but it’s pretty much accurate 9 times out of 10 when it comes to Drugs. If you read the side effects list, no where…and I mean NO WHERE does it mention seeing Spiders and men walking around in your front garden and watching you sleep. That has been my life for the past week.

I have visually hallucinated before but that was after not sleeping for close to 7 days in a row ( I saw my Mr Bump cushion dance across the floor… I thought it was funny). This time it’s getting beyond a joke. I am sure that the Reboxetine is to blame but until I can be sure I don’t want to bother the Pdoc with it.
I am not overtly bothered by the hallucinations but then again I am not happy about them either. I would rather not have to keep checking the floor to see if the Spiders are coming to get me are for real or not. I hate spiders at the best of times so why my mind is making me conjure these , I have no idea.
The man in the front grden is weird as I don’t know why he is there. He’s not doing anything except walking across the grass (my mum suggests I ask him if he’ll mow the grass while he is walking about.) The funny thing is he only walks one way I never see him walk back. I wish I was dreaming all this because I could fob it off using a dream analysis but because I am most definatly awake at the time it’s pretty pointless. The person watching me sleep is not, suprisingly, alarming to me. I don’t know why that is because to any “normal” person having someone standing in the corner while you are sleeping is gonna give you the screaming habdabs.

If anyone has any insights on where i can find more info on reboxetine other than wikipedia then hook me up with a link in the comments section… esspecially if there is a link to visual hallucinations.

Until Next Time…

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