Now normally I wouldn’t have a problem with snow. Normally I don’t have to go out in it for longer than a few minutes at a time. But this week I have to go out twice. Tomorrow is my first Medication Management meeting that was rescheduled from last week, and I have a feeling we may have to do some shopping after the meeting. Then on Wednesday I have a dentists appointment for “some extractions“. The letter from the dentists made it very clear that it wasn’t going to be just one extraction but MULTIPLE extractions. Believe it or not I have never had to have a tooth taken out in my whole life and now my teeth are screwed up I have to have MULTIPLE teeth out in one visit. Tell me how little the dentist hurts when they force teeth out of your head.. someone tell me it only tickles PLEASE.
My mood is fluctuating today. One minute I am happy and glowing about the radiance of winter (sick aren’t I) and then the next I am down so far I want to drown myself in the snow and never wake up. I don’t know what the problem is. I don’t normally flip flop between moods. I guess (and it is only a guess) that I am in the middle of a mixed state episode.
Mixed affective episode
In the context of bipolar disorder, a mixed state is a condition during which symptoms of mania and clinical depression occur simultaneously (for example, agitation, anxiety, aggressiveness or belligerence, confusion, fatigue, impulsiveness, insomnia, irritability, morbid and/or suicidal ideation, panic, paranoia, persecutory delusions, pressured speech, racing thoughts, restlessness, and rage).
According to the all knowing Wikipedia I am showing signs of a mixed episode. Maybe only a mild one but I haven’t really had one of these before that I have been acutly aware of. I could do without the added pressure of anything else being wrong with me. Oh the joys.
I am off to burn off some of this energy i have pent up.
Until Next Time…