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Raging Against The Rage

Paul — Mon, 25 Jul 2011 20:09:13 +0000

I have for the past few weeks been quite despondent about things going on around me. I have had the wind knocked out of my sails by various events and situations that I thought I had no real control over. I found I was wrong. Let me start at the beginning. When I was a …

Hi

Paul — Tue, 21 Jun 2011 23:34:41 +0000

I have been sat at my computer for what seems like months (in fact it’s been five weeks or so.) I have sat here with my blog open and willing myself to write, hoping that something would come to me that would make sense outside of the crazy ramblings going on inside my head. It …

The Weather

Paul — Mon, 25 Apr 2011 17:25:06 +0000

Don’t panic I am not going to go into the mind numbing minutiae of how good the British weather is. But for the first time in as many years as I care to remember my mood has taken an up swing during this latest spell of good weather. Normally you would have me cowering in …

Ever Evolving

Paul — Tue, 12 Apr 2011 21:30:55 +0000

I had another post that I started writing Saturday afternoon about this but I lost the impetus and it’s just lying languidly in my drafts folder… lets hope this one gets further along. Last Friday I had my first appointment with the new CMHT’s Consultant Psych. To say I was nervous about it is an …

Slow Release

Paul — Sun, 13 Feb 2011 16:48:06 +0000

It’s been a week now that I have been on the Modified release dosage of Seroquel and I have to say… it’s royally kicking my arse. I started of taking it at 10pm with the rest of my pills only to have me wake up at anywhere between 2.30am and 4am and not being able …

Last week

Paul — Wed, 19 May 2010 18:23:48 +0000

I spent most of last week hiding out. The depression was kicking my ass big time and it was a sucky way to spend my birthday week, timing was never my strong suit. I had my discussion group on Monday which went well, lots to talk over and really engaging debate. By the end of …

Monday 27th Med Management Diary

Paul — Mon, 27 Apr 2009 13:20:11 +0000

As I suspected yesterday I bottled it and cancelled my appointment this morning. Well I tried to cancel it but apparently it wasn’t booked until next Monday which is a bank holiday so after playing some phone tag we got it sorted so that the appointment has been rescheduled for the 11th May. I didn’t …

Sunday 26th Med Management Diary

Paul — Sun, 26 Apr 2009 13:14:58 +0000

I kept myself busy today and tried not to think about tomorrow. I supposed to have a meeting with Working Links in another pointless meeting about going back to work. Something I can’t foresee me doing for a while seeing as I can’t get to the bus stop with getting myself in a flap. I …

Friday 24th Med Management Diary

Paul — Fri, 24 Apr 2009 13:12:39 +0000

Not much happened today. I was a bit emotional at being so stressed out yesterday afternoon. I just got on with the day and tried to put yesterday out of my head. I spent most of today playing around with radio programmes on the computer just to give me something to do instead of thinking …

Thursday 23th Med Management Diary

Paul — Thu, 23 Apr 2009 12:56:21 +0000

All of the calm I had felt the past couple of days had evaporated by this morning. My anxiety levels were way up and I didn’t think I would cope with going out today and it took and a daytime Lorazapam to get me out of the door. It was the last Life Skills group …

Wednesday 22nd Med Management Diary

Paul — Wed, 22 Apr 2009 12:50:58 +0000

No real problems today. Stayed home, no reason to go out. No anxiety problems and still feeling quite up from the meeting yesterday afternoon. I have been home alone most of the day with both Linda and mum being at work. I enjoy the peace and quiet of being home alone. I am glad when …

Tuesday 21st Med Management Diary

Paul — Tue, 21 Apr 2009 12:44:00 +0000

No real major panics today. I was a little apprehensive at the thought of going out but I had no problems with the meeting once I got there. I am finding it really quite hard to come to terms with having memory loss. I hadn’t realised how bad it was until I started these Medication …