It’s official I now have a foreign body in me permanently. I had two more teeth pulled today and had them replaced with a lovely set of three new plastic ones. As I write this I want to remind myself when I read this back in years to come…. that IT BLOODY HURTS WHEN THE DRUGS WEAR OFF.
When I first went to the dentist all those months back I thought that I would be getting a face full of fakery and was pleasantly surprised when he told me that I would only need three falseys. What followed was a building of my confidence to be able to go to the dentists office on my own without the major need of Lorazapam. It almost felt comfortable to go there. Now I don’t have to go back for three to four months I wonder what I will replace my little victory jaunts with. For the next four weeks I have the Life Skills workshops to do and I attend them on my own. So that’s got my weekly trip out on my own. I really need to build up my solo flights so to speak.
I just want to apologise for the crappy post last night. I was kinda bummed out about I dunno what. I think it had something to do with the Life Skills workshop and some of the issues that were raised. I couldn’t tell you what they were specifically but the whole thing kid of bought me down. I did try and speak out a little more yesterday and I contributed a little more, I just wish I knew where the sparkling wit and jovial Me went. I miss him sometimes.
OK I am gonna head off and winge some more about my mouth being sore and try and figure out what I can eat without hitting the roof… Salt and Vinegar crisps should do the open wounds some good… I need a good cry anyway lol.
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It’s that time of year where I guess I should be making some kind of plans or resolutions for the year ahead. Well, I would but I know I would just break them within a week. So here are some recommendations for myself for the year coming up.
Read More – I am an appallingly bad reader. I start a book and give up on it within the first chapter. I gotta get more reading done, it might improve my writing some too.
Lose Weight – I gotta do something I don’t walk any more I waddle.
Exercise – Just get some is all I am saying
Write More – I need to buckle down and write more than I do now… be it blogging or creative I just have to write more and release some of the pent up frustration that my hands feel more and more lately
Wise up to my own Health – I am going to find out what I am taking and what they are for. I am starting a Medication Management course through the MHT in mid January. I plan on asking lots of questions.
2008 was pretty sucky for me. losing my job in October was a particular low point. It finaly proved that the illness is starti8ng to win. I had lost control of my life and I still don’t have any of it back. I can’t leave the house unaccompanied (even though I do try… I go to my dentists appointments on my own, but that is just in a taxi out of the taxi in the office out the office in a taxi out of a taxi and back home.. it’s no big achievement really).
I am not including getting out of the house unaided in my list of things to be done in 09 as I don’t think that that is at all realistic and is not something that should be rushed. It will happen when it happens.
Here’s to a prosperous new year and hopefully a healthier one for all of us