Well I saw my doctor today and he wasn’t a great deal of help, but then again what can you really say when a 19 stone bloke comes into your office and tells you he’s having a problem with Rage. I guess you don’t piss him off for fear of him sitting on you.
He listened and looked through his magic medicine book (I wanna know what that book is called leave a comment of you know.) He took into account that I thought the Depakote wasn’t working as it should and decided to reduce the Reboxatine to half of what it was, and add in, for two weeks, Promazine Hydrochloride at 25mg twice a day. Once in the morning when I get up and once in the Afternoon so I get the continual support of the drug throughout the day.
All I can say is that I went from “RARRRRRR” to “I Don’t Give A Fuck” in about an hour this afternoon after my first dose. He said it was a low dose and it should ease some of the agitation. Boy did it do that. But I am wary that it is only a sticky plaster over a big crack. What’s going to happen in two weeks when the sticky plaster is removed. It’s been about 8 or 9 hours since I took the dose and I am not sure of the half life of the drug but I am feeling kinda edgy and non drowsy at the moment. It could be that I am still drinking coffee (it’s weaker than i normally make it… i may look green but I aint no cabbage).
OK so I am gonna disappear and do something deviant for a while. Just a quick update and all that jazz.
It’s strange to see something you find hard to believe, but when it’s not really there in the first place it takes things to a whole new level.
Let me explain the situation… I have auditory hallucinations pretty much constantly, they are dampened down by taking Risperidone, but they are always there and I am always aware of them. The rest of my cocktail is Depakote, Mirtazapine, Ariproprazole, Lamotrigine and Lorazepam The Ariproprazole wasn’t working the way it should after nearly three months, so my psychiatrist decided to wean me off that and add in Reboxetine. That link takes you to the Wikipedia page for the drug. Now I know the wiki isn’t a professional thing but it’s pretty much accurate 9 times out of 10 when it comes to Drugs. If you read the side effects list, no where…and I mean NO WHERE does it mention seeing Spiders and men walking around in your front garden and watching you sleep. That has been my life for the past week.
I have visually hallucinated before but that was after not sleeping for close to 7 days in a row ( I saw my Mr Bump cushion dance across the floor… I thought it was funny). This time it’s getting beyond a joke. I am sure that the Reboxetine is to blame but until I can be sure I don’t want to bother the Pdoc with it.
I am not overtly bothered by the hallucinations but then again I am not happy about them either. I would rather not have to keep checking the floor to see if the Spiders are coming to get me are for real or not. I hate spiders at the best of times so why my mind is making me conjure these , I have no idea.
The man in the front grden is weird as I don’t know why he is there. He’s not doing anything except walking across the grass (my mum suggests I ask him if he’ll mow the grass while he is walking about.) The funny thing is he only walks one way I never see him walk back. I wish I was dreaming all this because I could fob it off using a dream analysis but because I am most definatly awake at the time it’s pretty pointless. The person watching me sleep is not, suprisingly, alarming to me. I don’t know why that is because to any “normal” person having someone standing in the corner while you are sleeping is gonna give you the screaming habdabs.
If anyone has any insights on where i can find more info on reboxetine other than wikipedia then hook me up with a link in the comments section… esspecially if there is a link to visual hallucinations.