I am slipping further down the rabbit hole.
My name is not Alice but lonely Brit boy.
I was once a rider on life’s great journey,
now I am just a passenger on life’s steam roller.
Rolling, plundering over grass and ground glass.
There is no beauty in my eyes any more,
I don’t seem to be able to see it [...]
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Slipping
February 27th, 2010
Goals
February 8th, 2010
I wish I had a set of goals that I could look towards. Something to build my life up to. At the moment all I can manage is just to get up in the morning and keep my ass awake for the duration. I have started taking the Zopiclone at night to get me to [...]
Last Week
November 10th, 2009
I meant to post all this last week but one thing led to another and I never got around to it.
Monday I went for my 6monthly Diabetes check up. I had had the blood work done the week before so now it was time to man up and go get the bad news. Diabetes appointments [...]
Days
October 29th, 2009
I don’t know. I really don’t. Probably not the best way to start a post but I am at a total loss at the moment. Everything seems to be so much blummin effort. The days seem three times longer than normal, I am sleeping more, which makes the days being longer thing even more bizarre. [...]
Lower.
August 5th, 2009
It’s all a bunch of bullshit.
It’s that plain and simple. I have been depressed now for 4 days and it seems to be getting worse. It started off my missing a dose of my medication and it kind of spiralled downwards from there. Going from restlessness to ambivalence to sleeping all the time to not [...]
Round and Round
July 14th, 2009
I would have written sooner but ya see it just wasn’t flowing. I have about ten partially started in my drafts folder that one day I may finish. I am doing fairly well. No major things going on. I seem to “Just Get By” most of the days lately.
I recently told a friend that I [...]
Down Down Deeper and Down
January 24th, 2009
To start with, I am sorry for the Status Quo reference, it’s totally unlike me, I can assure you of that. I like em but I am not what you would call an obsessive fan.
The basic fact of the matter is that I have been down for the best part of 10 days now with [...]
A Low Weekend
January 19th, 2009
Friday and Saturday were really bad days for me. My mood swung so far down I didn’t think I would come out of it for a month. I felt like the whole world was against me and everything I did was wrong. I just sat at my computer or laid in bed not knowing what [...]
Looking Down
November 18th, 2008
I guess I spoke to soon. After such a good weekend, I have been down all day. It was made even worse by having to go out on my own today. I don’t know what has triggered off this downward spiral, it could be post getaway blues.
Maybe the freedom I had over the weekend was [...]
