So it’s been a couple of weeks but nothing much has changed. I am still fluctuating between rage at the world and maddening depression. One day I want to rip some ones head off and piss down the throat of my victim, the next day I don’t want to get out of bed and function [...]
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Round and Round
July 14th, 2009
I would have written sooner but ya see it just wasn’t flowing. I have about ten partially started in my drafts folder that one day I may finish. I am doing fairly well. No major things going on. I seem to “Just Get By” most of the days lately. I recently told a friend that [...]
Breathe
June 10th, 2009
I am having problems breathing. I don’t know if it’s a panic thing or if it’s a congestion thing. I can breathe through my nose fine but if i do I feel like I am drowning… hence I am a dreaded mouth breather today and that makes for interesting listening when I am on the [...]
If music be the food….
May 6th, 2009
As you may have noticed things have been pretty quiet around here with the exception of a spate of posts made about my medication management diary. There will be more of those coming so you will see a lot more posts from me in the near future. I have been mostly absent from the blogosphere [...]
Thursday 23th Med Management Diary
April 23rd, 2009
All of the calm I had felt the past couple of days had evaporated by this morning. My anxiety levels were way up and I didn’t think I would cope with going out today and it took and a daytime Lorazapam to get me out of the door. It was the last Life Skills group [...]
They Can Rebuild Me
March 27th, 2009
It’s official I now have a foreign body in me permanently. I had two more teeth pulled today and had them replaced with a lovely set of three new plastic ones. As I write this I want to remind myself when I read this back in years to come…. that IT BLOODY HURTS WHEN THE [...]
Touchy feely relief
March 21st, 2009
I needn’t of worried about my Life Skills workshop. The first get together was more like talk therapy. There were far more people there than I thought there would be. There were probably 12-15 people there including facilitators. It was nice and relaxed to start with and then the interaction bit started. Introduce yourself to [...]
Cancelled
January 28th, 2009
So there I was psyching myself up for my Medication Management meeting at 3pm, when at 11am I get a phone call from the clinic saying that the Nurse who was to be sitting in on the meeting wasn’t available today so they would have to cancel the meeting and rearrange it for next week. [...]
Another Day
January 14th, 2009
Yep just another day in my life. Well not exactly JUST another day but it’s been pretty mundane. I have been freaking, as usual, about something way out of my control. This morning when the postman delivered our mail I was presented with the IB50 form from the Incapacity Benefit people. I knew that getting [...]
Looking up
November 17th, 2008
Today was suprisingly uplifting day. We travelled back from Kent this morning and I made a concious choice not to take a Lorazapam this morning, just to see how far I could push myself without snapping. I had my extra pills with me so I could slip one in if things got too much. But [...]
